I don't feel at home anywhere anymore

  • 8.7 10
  • 2021
  • 15min
I don't feel at home anywhere anymore
  • Original Title: I don't feel at home anywhere anymore

When Viv Li returns to Beijing after a decade abroad, she grapples with the realities of her dual identity, diving into a whirlwind of nostalgia, laughter, and the piercing pain of uprootedness.

I don't feel at home anywhere anymore

AWARDS: Special Mention. IDFA/ Best Documentary. International Short Film Festival Leuven/ Best Film. Diaspora International Short Film Festival/ Air Canada Short Film Award. Reel Asian International Film Festival/ Onion Seed Award. MakeDox Creative Documentary Film Festival,/ Special Mention. Leiden Shorts

OFFICIAL SELECTION: Beijing International Short Film Festival/ DocuDays/ Filmfest Dresden/ Aesthetica Short Film Festival/ Tirana International Film Festival/ HiShorts/ London Short Film Festival/ FIPADOC 

I don't feel at home anywhere anymore - Homecoming, Identity, Transition

This captivating documentary unveils the heart-warming yet poignant journey of Viv Li, a 30-year-old art student who's spent a decade in Belgium, far from her native Beijing. Her return to China during Christmas rekindles nostalgic memories and stirs a whirlpool of emotions. As she delves deeper into her past, reconnects with her family, and reminisces about her traditions, Viv grapples with the duality of her identity — the clash of Eastern roots with Western influences. Her sense of displacement is palpable, and the pangs of uprootedness strike hard. Yet, in the midst of these raw feelings, humor emerges from the quirkiest of situations, painting a picture of melancholic longing interspersed with chuckles. This candid portrayal is not just about a trip back home; it is an exploration of the internal struggles of a migratory bird torn between the allure of distant skies and the warmth of its original nest.

Viv Li
Viv Li Director

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